Conversation with my ex boyfriend for four years.. =(

March 26, 2009
Around 11:00 pm

Tinawagan ko siya after 2 years. Alam ko namang sasagutin niya yung call. Why? Nasa San Jose City siya, umuwi siya before mag-start yung summer class niya sa San Juan De Letran. Nag-iba voice niya, mas naging lalaking lalaki. Parang may anak na. Lol!

Wala pa rin pinagbago. Dating pa lang ng voice eh napaka-sungit. Sa akin lang ata masungit yan eh. Okay lang, sanay na ako at kasalanan ko naman bakit siya ganun pa rin sa akin.

Sabi niya napatawad na niya ako, pero the way he talk parang hindi pa rin. Hays, bakit kaya nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi? Lagi na lang ako nagkakamali.

Sa totoo lang bihira na tulad niya eh. Lagi ako nasasabihang tanga ng mga long time friends ko why pinakawalan ko pa daw. Kung alam lang sana nila yung mga naging problema eh maiintindihan nila ako at si Jerome.

Jerome: Baka mapahiya ka lang pag nakilala at nakita mo gf ko now? *sarcasm*

Me: Bakit naman? Sobarng ganda ba niya? Eh matagal na tayong di nagkikita, marami ng nagbago sa akin *pinatatag ko lang sarili ko, pero marami na talaga nagbago sakin eh*

Jerome: *natahimik* okay basta pag nasa manila na ako, wag mo ako ite-text at madalas hawak ng gf ko phone ko, okay?

Michelle: Nangangamusta lang naman ako. May masama ba dun?

Jerome: Bakit pa?

Life is so unfair. That's why i often describe it as unpredictable. Because of this, i've learned a lot. Gusto ko umasa na babalik pa siya, pero masyado siyang natabunan ng galit at natatak sa isipan niya na hindi na ako magbabago. Mahal ko pa ba siay> Hindi naman nawala yun eh kahit pa dumating si Roberto at ang hayop na Jesster na yan sa buhay ko.

Mahalaga ngayon okay siya. Wala naman ako pakialam if may gd ba siya talaga o wala? Mahalaga din eh nag-aaral siyang mabuti. Yung pag-inom niya at sa yosi? Di ko na mababawal yun.

Hays. Namimiss ko na yung tao na napaka-sungit, mahigpit, sobrang seloso, possessive, selfish, hard headed minsan, yung maputi, matangkad, malinis sa katawan, napakabango at yung guy na kahit minsan sa four years na yun eh hindi ako nagawang lokohin.

Ganun talaga. =(



Officially Missing You - Tamia
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LOve it sees, but it doesn't mind? !

When you fall in love it's not because of what he/she has but the person itself the moment your realizations sink into you.

most of the time, it's a rapid cycle not knowing you've love him/her pertaining to tha good sides that we almost forget its opposite side, our flaws.

Our common mistake that tiggers our mind is the thought of changing him/her for the betterment which is a big NO NO! Why putting her/himself to your must to do list when he's/she's not doing the stuff you're making intentionally?

It's just a matter of acceptance. We must remember that nobody's perfect and that old habits are hard to die.

If you are looking for a person who acn meet your expectations then you're in touble, because even perfectionist fall in love with someone's imperfections.

Great people do come once in our lives, if you are seeking for the ultimatum, you are meeting a life without security.

Love's Uncertainties

Today you were totally in love with each other. But how about tomorrow? Will this feelings remains the same since day one? Are you afraid of getting hurt for the last time around?

You are too serious about this relationship and you're giving your 100% best just to be his/her last. But one of this days your heart will let go. It is, because person get tired too though the feelings and emotions remains the strong.


You'll let go because whether you like it or not,you are tired of waiting to see this for real and not for a play. You don't want to get hurt again because of too much love, i understand. Yeah, it is. But how far will you let yourself be in situation where you are happy but in the other side you are getting hurt as time pass you by. If only you could turn back the time, you will not let yourself fall gagin.

You are totally huting inside, you'll let go when you know things are not the same since the day you fell in love with each other. Love tends to be a confusion especially for those commit a long distance relationship. It sucks though all you can do is to cry over the one you love who is blind to see that you are hurting inside..

About me..

♥♥Name: Michelle Perez Corbe

Age: 19

Location: San Jose City, Nueva Ecija

Email add: pinkmitchi@hotmail.com

Friendster: pinkmitchi4@hotmail.com

Multiply: pinkmitch7.multiply.com

Ym: mimi_mitchi

Interest: Photography, Movies, Literature, Australian Universities, Foods ( not vegetble dishes, okay? )

Searching for: A life without nothing to worry, eventhough its impossible!

Life for me: is but an abyss of journey where you can live with it as you discover its zest to its boundaries.

An ideal guy would be: a someone whose true to his words and won't take time and distance as a hindrance to a certain relationship.


A place i'd love to visit: would be Boracay and Australia.

I really love this: Candy Magazine.

I am crushing on a guy name: Miguel Crisostomo Alcaraz ( hope i get it right, haha! ) aka Mong Alcaraz of Sandwich, The Bitter Pill and Chicosci

I really really love watching: It Started With A Kiss 1 & 2.

A day won't be complete without: sleeping. i am addicted with it!

As of now i am: SINGLE! and baby you're always welcome to change that! haha

I am dreamin' of winning the last jackpot prize in 6/49 lotto, haha! Honestly, i want my parents to be proud of me once i achive my dreams in life.

I am curious on this guy name: Edward Cullen, everyone knows him. You know him, don't you?

I've been in: Pampanga, Laguna. Only myself travel on those two places. I'm already a lady! :D

I hate: vegetables

I love wearing: girly clothes now, super! =)

Everyone: used to think that i am a Fil-am which is not. I am 100% Filipino! :p


*Just some information about this girl =)



Booty Music - Git Fresh
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Tardiness!

I have already 100+ poems on my little notebook, but I am too tired to type them down here in my site. But there'll come a time that i will. Hee!

I am already writing poems since elementary days.

I've been a part of a school's newspapers since elementary.

One thing i regret that i didn't put much effort is more focusing to painting. And indeed i love to draw! I may not have talent on singing and writing but my hands are too powerful that are not been exposed TOTALLY!

Status: Single

Yup. It's been two months since the day i left a heartless guy name Jesster Salcedo ( at least here in blogspot i can put yer name in shame stupid guy! )

Sis Joyce ( mellow ) is quite true to her words that whenever she reminisce her memories with Jesster is that "nakakadiri!"

I agree. In the sense that i've wasted my time, effort, love and MONEY to a guy who used to be the only person i've taken seriously!

I feel so sorry. I have my karma with regards about our situation. Tsk!
But eventhough this entry seems full of anger, i am not bitter. Again, I am better!

Old friend by Kyla..

I am lovin' the song very much! Oh, i wish i had a time machine.. tsk!

A million times or more I thought about you
The years, the tears, the laughter, things we used to do
Are memories that warm me like a sunny day
You touched my life in such a special way

I miss the way you'd run your fingers through my hair
Those cozy nights we cuddled in your easy chair
Oh no, I won't let foolish pride turn you away
I'll take you back whatever price I pay

Old friend
It's so nice to feel you hold me again
No, it doesn't matter where you have been
My heart welcomes you back home again

Remember those romantic walks we used to take
You held my hand in such a way my knees would shake
You can't imagine just how much I've needed you
I've never loved someone as I love you

Old friend
It's so nice to feel you hold me again
No, it doesn't matter where you have been
My heart welcomes you back

Old friend
This is where our happy ending begins
Yes, I'm sure this time that we're gonna win
Welcome back into my life again

Yes, I've tried to live my life without you
Knowing I had lost my closest friend
And though I'm feeling low from time to time
Knowing I will never find the kind of love I had when you were mine

Old friend
It's so nice to feel you hold me again
No, it doesn't matter where you have been
My heart welcomes you back

Old friend
This is where our happy ending begins
Yes, I'm sure this time that we're gonna win
Welcome back into my life again

Welcome back into my life again
Welcome back into my life again